So far I'm Suprised

So far I'm surprised at how well I'm doing on this fast. Last year, I totally failed. I've determined that this year, I will not justify going to Chipotle to get a veggie bowl with guacamole and chips. (I can't do that anyway b/c where I live, there are no Chipotles, Baja Fresh, Qdobas, etc.) You get my point...

I did, however, almost slip up yesterday. I got angry about something so when I got home, I pulled out some Ms. Fields cookies I had in the freezer.

I'll eat these after they thaw out, I said to myself. (See, when I get upset about something, the first thing I do is pick up a snack. Usually it's something sweet!) After I ate lunch, though, I fell asleep on the couch, and by the time I woke up, I wasn't upset. Needless to say, I placed the two chocolate chip cookies back in the freezer.


My focus for the fast is building my faith. I lack faith in God in particular areas of my life, and I've realized that it's affecting me overall. Naturally, I'm studying Hebrews, and so far it's been a real eye opener for me.

the initial chapters focus on rest. Of course, I've always looked as rest meaning - taking a break from work. But reading Hebrews this time around, I'm learning that rest also refers to relinquishing my concerns and futile attempts to control my life by allowing God to handle these things. It tells us that the Israelites, whom God provided a way out of Egypt, did not enter his rest b/c they failed to believe and went astray in their hearts. Oh and I noticed that God called their exile or journey in the wilderness a trial. (I read New King James.) I never knew God considered that a trial. He was testing their faith, and they failed! I don't want that to happen to me. Uh huh...no way!